Ya know James you said in your blog that you are religious, I am too. I think when you believe in God that you do have somewhat of a inner peace with death. No its not easier but I think there is that hope that one day you will see them again. Atleast for me there is that. I'm not saying that to be preachy but its just how I feel. My one friend Tim I know that was his peace in the end, he would talk about it. He was 42 but he looked like he might as well have been 142, he was skin and bones and his hair was mostly gone. He was ready and prior to his dying he was looking forward to it. He had that inner peace, he said his good-byes and he was looking forward to seeing those who he had loss in the past and he was looking forward to no more pain. As sad as his funeral was it really was a celebration of his life and I'm so glad I was a part of his life. When he was dying he took up painting and he painted me this beautiful picture that I treasure. On the back of is I have the card he wrote me and my husband, he died shortly after painting it.

I guess tonight I'll hug my kids a little tighter and say I love you one more time.